i thought it was about time i resurected my writing on here!

So time has passed. I no longer 'ache from wanting him' jaysus there is nothing like heartbreak to bring out the drama queen in a girl! The feeling has sort passed now when i look back on our life together its almost as if i am thinking about two people i dont know like watching a film. I guess i have changed.

Anyway so, there still hasnt been anyone else special. Now i am thinking there may never be. Not the same sort of love anyway. Perhaps thats a good thing i dont think i have the energy for the all consuming passion that i mistook for a relationsip!

Well i say there hasnt been anyone special. Untill now. So saturday night. I met a guy. We'll call him 'red' and for teh first time in ages. i was having a bit of craic with a lad.
We had loads of things in common, including friends. What can i say im from a small place?!

anyway he asked for my number and a kiss. He got both, however, i had yet to have any contact? should i be worried? my friend shelly says he'll text within the next 48 hours. well see she seemed quite the authority ' he'll wait three days, four if he's playing it really cool' i seriously considered asking her if she had slept with him/ was related to him (seriously its that small a place) seem so certain of how he would react.

I had forgotten how funny all this single stuff is. I am not entirely convinced he'll txt at all. We shall see though, i might be surprised! There is always hope i guess!

Anyway i promise i will get back in to this blogging yoke and make it a bit more of a regular thing and who knows there might even be a few more mentions of the red fella!

Its good to be back

peace

That you never run into the people you want to? I have been hoping to see him for ages now.

It used to happen all the time. I would constantly find myself in the same pub, coffee shop and even bump into him in town! That’s the reason we got talking to each other in the first place for goodness sake!

Why has everything changed? Since we’ve finished fate has cruelly decided to keep us apart. I’m doing the same things but constantly feel as though I’ve just missed him as if I’m perpetually 10 mins late!

I miss him. I think of things to tell him that I know he would find amusing and I go to tell him but I can’t anymore can I?

I ache from wanting him…

Right, not sure where to begin really. Have so many thoughts going round in my head its hard to know which ones to start with!

So my first post! Will anyone actually read it? If they do will they find it amusing,witty or interesting or just plain dull!

Oh well i hoping that bposting blogs on here will help my thought process i chance for me to be completely self centred and talk about my thoughts,ideas and feelings without the risk of being hurt.

its quite strange realy i hate confiding in people or showing any sign of weakness but here i am putting some of my deepest thoughts out onto the www ready for ridcule!

Possibly for the many spelling mistakes im bound to make this was never my strong point at school and remains the same today!

i am not sure what even put the idea in my head about the blogs the idea just really appeals to me. If i ever get stressed i reach for my diary to offload and this just the next step up from that i guess but on a much more public stage!

Well fingers crossed i dont get mocked to much! First one done and that wasnt so bad!

peace